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I Am So Lost at the zenith, where none can reach. Wondering Wanderer What will your reflection think? Who’s imitating who? Who’s emulating who? The Dark and The Light. krad and light(zem) They Found Me commune
Chapters of my life April 2006 May 2006 June 2006 July 2006 August 2006 December 2006 January 2008 February 2008 March 2008 April 2008 May 2008 June 2008 July 2008 August 2008 September 2008 October 2008 November 2008 December 2008 January 2009 February 2009 March 2009 April 2009 May 2009 June 2009 August 2009 September 2009 October 2009 January 2010 February 2010 March 2010 April 2010 May 2010 June 2010 July 2010 August 2010 September 2010 December 2010 March 2011 April 2011 May 2011 June 2011 |
Wednesday, March 19, 2008 Only a child, unshackled by the reality he has yet to see, could still freely dream. Cradle of Creativity. Innocence is beautiful only because our eyes have been corrupted by the reality of the world. In the innocence of childhood, she has her greatest companion in the teddy bear. A confidant, who will patiently listen to everything she has to say and empathize perfectly with her. Hugging it makes her feel better immediately, dispelling pain and sorrow. Its presence banishes nightmares. In time, as the magic is lost, the companion becomes just a soft toy; and dies. In the innocence of childhood, everyone, everything is good… A new classmate is simply a new playmate and eventually a friend. Then reality comes along and shows us a bad guy. Maybe because one have been hurt before or fear to become hurt. Then reality came along and gave us his sunglasses. When the magic is strong, The worst sorrows and pain of the world is dispelled with an ice cream or chocolates. The worst problems eliminated with encouragement and determination. As the magic leaks, one discover that there are really mountains too high to climb, that there are sorrows and pain so suffocating, In the innocence of childhood, things are simple and pure. Gratitude, care, concern all are heartfelt Emotions are untainted: Happy and Sad. Then the world taught them jealousy, malice, anger, hypocrisy, fear, and many others… In the innocence of childhood, all stories are fairy tales, happy endings await (= As the shell shatters, the magic leaks… Ask a child what he desires and it could be something small, simple and universal, happiness, love. Ask an adult what he desires and it could be a multitude of things that the world showed him, delusions and all… In the end both wants and needs the same things, one gets it, the other don’t. Cherish your inner child. Keep it somewhere safe against the ravages of reality. As it lives on, it will shine and brighten up the world. Even as reality seeks to bombards you, the inner child will rejuvenate you. Flickering about and lighting up lives, till the day when reality finally bask in its light.
zeminith wondered and wandered @ 1:36 am |
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Tuesday, March 11, 2008 sigh, a random post for you all... Well, sadly, as complicated as before. What should I do? What means do I have now? Is there really, really nothing? Need to find a direction to proceed. One needs to learn how to share and care... Briefly, this is the state of affairs currently. ay, 8 sentances, 11,22,33,44,55,66,77,88.
zeminith wondered and wandered @ 12:37 am |
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Kinetic! Eventually, all things will roll and tumble to their position. Enough time, all that is required. Purpose, the push or pull of all these things. Isit not, can and will fate be debated? Time and fate spiralling on. Until the very end, does it matter, as they wind through the corridors to the position. Perhaps, perhaps... !maybe there really is something. (= ....
zeminith wondered and wandered @ 12:16 am |
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Saturday, March 08, 2008 The release of results. Does one’s fate really hinge on it? Regrets of not studying harder or not playing more? Rationally, regrets and anxiety are useless emotions for the outcome will not be changed by it. Condition one to expect nothing? A blank slate for whatever may fall… And now for the perplexing question. I'm at a loss... To show concern, does one wish the other who is receiving results luck, does one enquire about the results? In a logical sense luck cant help for results release though it may help if the blessing is given prior to the exam. Now the strange feel good factor for doing so. Does the factor exist, does it make a difference, and do friends expect or hope for it? I never asked people for results, unless maybe they asked me first. I fear, or I know that I will be at a loss how to console if they’ve done badly, it is as if I’ve reopened their wound. Better not broach... And in one’s style to hide and lick one wounds, not letting others worry. Maybe in due time, one wouldn’t mind talking about it freely when the emotions subside. On the other hand if it is good, words of congratulations, though have always felt that the words are hollow for some strange reasons. Ways to bypass the awkwardness in one’s playful youth: A light hearted bet on who perform worst. Hey, if you done well, good; if you done badly, you’ve won yourself a treat from a friend, consolation of sorts. Cheers, and a light hearted opportunity to dissolve the tense situation? Ay, and really does it matter, or shall one act like it doesn’t matter? It is a rare gathering of classmates, let’s go have fun together? Ay, in the innocent years, receiving of results simply signifies the start of holidays and the end of the exams. Whatever it is, a new chapter has begun... The story continues... No matter what happens, smile on... ? Dedicated to those dear A level holders after today.... idnwts
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Tuesday, March 04, 2008  如果我爱上你的笑容， --------------- 
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Sunday, March 02, 2008  a heart that cared, that went unshared..
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